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Not Ha Ha Funny

My friends call me gay, not ha ha funny My enemies call me *****, they say I dress like an androdyous honey My mama with tough love, tells me: I’m living a sinful lifestyle My daddy growls and disavows: says I’m his biological son, but not his spiritual child Nothing is ha ha funny about this situation at all Mixed emotions got me on a Bunson burn Beaker of roiling XY chromsomes and testosterone hormones Homosexual agony is tormenting me Desires I feel for another man; attraction so strong, so womanly God said those feelings ain’t natural, and shouldn’t be inside of me tempting Not one safe place to breathe in this heterosexual society I got man-sized hands and a feminine weighted heart But, do you wanna know the real funny part I’ll give you a good Pagliacci laughing head start My partner likes to dress up as a man Likes to wear custom fabric pants Drapes himself in the dark cloak of a masculine life But says he can only be himself when he’s around me, and away from his wife Ha ha ... funny story, don’t you think — I think not!

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Maureen Mcgreavy

Date: 9/20/2017 1:06:00 PM

It is agony indeed when being yourself means the pain of losing family and community; battling isolation, bigotry. This piece speaks volumes to your own unconditional loving ways Freddie, your sense of empathy is your light, it brightens and warms everybody you touch, like me :) xomo

Freddie Robinson Jr.
Date: 9/20/2017 3:39:00 PM

Ty Maureen. Your kind words humble me. Here is my spiritual philosophy: Sin is sin, don't matter what type. It's all grievous in God's sight. There's no degrees of iniquity, because ain't no sin right. I hate the sin, but love the sinner w/all my might. Love and more love always and forever.