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Not Ha Ha Funny

My friends call me gay,
not ha ha funny
My enemies call me *****,
they say I dress
like an androdyous honey
My mama with tough love,
tells me:
I’m living a sinful lifestyle
My daddy growls and disavows:
says I’m his biological son,
but not his spiritual child
Nothing is ha ha funny
about this situation at all
Mixed emotions got me
on a Bunson burn
Beaker of roiling XY chromsomes
and testosterone hormones
Homosexual agony
is tormenting me
Desires I feel for another man;
attraction so strong, so womanly
God said those feelings ain’t natural,
and shouldn’t be inside of me tempting
Not one safe place to breathe
in this heterosexual society
I got man-sized hands
and a feminine weighted heart
But, do you wanna know 
the real funny part
I’ll give you a good 
Pagliacci laughing head start
My partner likes to dress up 
as a man
Likes to wear custom fabric pants
Drapes himself in the dark cloak
of a masculine life
But says he can only be himself
when he’s around me,
and away from his wife
Ha ha ... funny story, don’t you think — 
I think not!

Copyright © Freddie Robinson Jr. | Year Posted 2017

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Maureen McGreavy Pigeon Tart Date: 9/20/2017 1:06:00 PM It is agony indeed when being yourself means the pain of losing family and community; battling isolation, bigotry. This piece speaks volumes to your own unconditional loving ways Freddie, your sense of empathy is your light, it brightens and warms everybody you touch, like me :) xomo Login to Reply Freddie Robinson Jr. Date: 9/20/2017 3:39:00 PM Ty Maureen. Your kind words humble me. Here is my spiritual philosophy: Sin is sin, don't matter what type. It's all grievous in God's sight. There's no degrees of iniquity, because ain't no sin right. I hate the sin, but love the sinner w/all my might. Love and more love always and forever.