Nostalgia

Have lost so much of what had remained in me I used to have beautiful thoughts and nice poems Read deep books , wished to die Wrote wrote and wrote just to stay alive Now I think I am in love Now I think I stay drunk To accept who I am Now I think what I am I have l lost what I could The genius is dead My spirit is lost Spiritus Mundi abandoned my ass Looking at my account Confirming I have enough I can't even starve in peace I can't even love for free I have drowned in this world I have accepted defeat I have accepted to eat This is the end I have tried to be me I have fought to be But still I have ended up where I was told Over educated Over frustrated Overcompensating Waiting for 40 years Just to stay dead That chapter is closed