No Regrets

You wanted to have me as your girlfriend Knowing that I was saving my body For the man should I one day wed I am fifty-six years old now And still never been married But I continue to believe it’s possible As a little girl I dreamt Of marriage and true love Not sleeping with a boyfriend My dream didn’t consider To settle and play house With someone who I’d never marry You don’t believe in marriage Yet you want all the benefits of marriage Without making the vows But you knew from the start Where I stood with my body It wasn’t a subject to debate You said you understood And that you would respect my boundaries So how come you began to complain? We kissed and held hands I was content with the exchange But you kept saying, “More!” Your balls turned blue and hurt What’s that got to do with me? I’m not the one to fix it With a distorted face Your preoccupation with sex My need for the subject to change “How about this…” I suggest “Go take a cold shower” And you took offense in that But you lied to me You got yourself aroused And wanted to have sex regardless You created the problem And blamed me for it But It was not my problem You resort to watching **** The volume muted on your phone And think I’m stupid Your preoccupation for sex Your boredom with my company The attitude that you’re being deprived The distance you created Miles away in your thinking As you watch naked women on your phone Shouldn’t I be the offended You are already unfaithful We haven’t even been together one month Now I have a problem It’s dealing with your ignorance You didn’t keep your word But I kept mine And I can’t tell you how glad I am For doing it I would have hated myself If I gave in to your pressure It would have been too late You would have got The one thing you wanted And I would still be unmarried You wouldn't have cared As I’m left with the emptiness Of knowing I betrayed my self We are no longer together But I still have my virtue That comes with no regrets What this has done for me Is strengthen my resolve I didn’t sell out. Even if I never marry I will remain faithful to my promise Knowing the treasure I possess.