No Matter Papa Repents

No Matter Papa Repents... Every blasted acrimonious misdeed aye indelibly perpetrated affecting ye and the Punim for life hounds me doggone soul night and day venomous wrath torments, strangles, racks... every bone in mine entire body suicidal ideations haunt every waking and sleeping hour, perhaps previous attempts to communicate, (albeit poetically - for no rhyme nor reason) fell short, asper yours truly to claim accountability, culpability, responsibility... unwittingly subjecting thee, a prized progeny with legacy, where diabolical, emotional, psychological... trauma compromised your care free growing up years namely while residing at 1148 Greentree Lane exacerbated by mine self absorption countless hours misspent whiling away precious time mesmerized more so with computer technology, versus prioritizing fleeting moments with "mother" and/or offspring yes..he now pays heavy price pursuing amorous liaisons gallivanting, flirting, emailing... impacting (obliviousness pitifully lame retort unacceptable) feigning much ado about nothing snappishly barking anger such vitriol (mine) sabotaged once in lifetime golden opportunity to foster, kindle pinterest with spouse and daughters subsequently deepening rift rivalling Mariana Trench love's labour's lost forever frittering away compounded half heartedly seeking employment even though - NO LIE inexplicable debilitating anxiety buzzfeeding panic attacks plaguing my psyche since...birth, incapacitating maximizing potential abilities playing havoc pledging troth with counterpart exhibiting mental health challenges unfairly begetting deux darling lasses thee bearing brunt of pennilessness, at aforementioned residence unlivable, horribly untidy, toxic with mold, cluttered... such offal sight, sounds of screaming, (when Shana nonverbal), stench... now suffer (PLEASE BELIEVE) suicidal ideation plagues my conscience pointed objects quite inviting remembrance of things past, a worse fate than death! PLEASE FORGIVE DADA...?