No Longer Real Love

I don't know what 
real love feels like. 

Never have and 
with todays meaning 
of "love" and "relationship"
I think I don't want to. 

Being "in love" now means
getting hurt, 
being lied to, 
having trust issues. 

Love is not 
supposed to be like that. 

Love is supposed to be fun, 
carefree, 
goofy, 
late night talks about life,
movie dates under the stars, 
food fights, 
laughs. 

A light hearted feeling, 
the feeling of floating on a 
cloud. 

Now it's 
checking locations, 
fighting over posts, 
crying over tweets, 
not knowing if their lying, 
going through their phone, 
trust issues, 
a sinking feeling. 

Love has been ruined for the 
hurt 
wanting to find a place to 
heal.

Copyright © Shannon Jenkins | Year Posted 2019