No Longer Real Love

I don't know what real love feels like. Never have and with todays meaning of "love" and "relationship" I think I don't want to. Being "in love" now means getting hurt, being lied to, having trust issues. Love is not supposed to be like that. Love is supposed to be fun, carefree, goofy, late night talks about life, movie dates under the stars, food fights, laughs. A light hearted feeling, the feeling of floating on a cloud. Now it's checking locations, fighting over posts, crying over tweets, not knowing if their lying, going through their phone, trust issues, a sinking feeling. Love has been ruined for the hurt wanting to find a place to heal.