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No Longer

I will no longer look for you
in the setting of the sun,
or in the breeze that sways the trees
when the tired day is done

I will no longer look for you
in the Milky Way so bright,
or in the glitter of the stars
on velvet of the night

I will no longer look for you
in the rosy streaks of dawn,
when nature wakes and the dew breaks
in diamonds on the lawn

I will no longer look for you
in the weeping willow tree
whose branches graze my shoulders bare
with touch of constancy

I will no longer look for you
in clouds that sail the sky
like wanderers, adventure bound
who simply pass me by

I will no longer look for you
beside the sun kissed shore
where wanting waves lap at my feet,
and pleasure waits once more

I will no longer look for you
in every passing crowd.
Although the banter flows around,
my heart keeps my head bowed

I will no longer look for you
when darkness bids me sleep
I'll close my eyes and dream a dream
where I am loved so deep

So know this painful truth I share:
My searching days are through.
Because you never looked for me,
I will not look for you

Eileen Manassian

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Mv Venkataraman

Date: 12/25/2024 2:10:00 AM

SIMPLY MARVELOUS !

Richard Lamoureux

Date: 12/5/2024 5:16:00 AM

Very moving. I like the use of repetition, it adds to the overall impact of your poem.

Ink Empress

Date: 12/1/2024 11:20:00 AM

Dear eileen, this is so evocative and so heartfelt, made me feel so much, especially the refrain, really is catchy and gives a very soul stirring energy! Your opening stanza really drew me in and made me feel so much, loss and more and love forgotten. And the way youv expressed that is so poetically moving! A fave this is for me! Pleasure reading you today. Sending you light always

Andrea Dietrich

Date: 12/1/2024 9:56:00 AM

Oh wow. This hits so deep. I love this kind of poetry. A fave for me. Love the ending

Brandy Nicole

Date: 11/30/2024 5:19:00 PM

' Because you never looked for me, I will not look for you. ' So sad. I can feel the pain in your words. This is tender and emotional, all at the same time. I'm holding your thoughts so close. My best to you, Eileen. Hugs, Brandy

Eileen Manassian
Date: 11/30/2024 6:09:00 PM

Thank you, Brandy. I appreciate the visit and comment. Much obliged. Big hugs

Paige Hind

Date: 11/30/2024 1:59:00 PM

"waves lap at my free" perhaps you meant feet? I just want you to have this the very best you can. This was sooo beautiful, Eileen! The end was powerful, especially....but the whole poem soared in my mind.

Eileen Manassian
Date: 11/30/2024 6:10:00 PM

Thank you, dear. I appreciate the help. I've corrected it. Thank you for caring enough to point that out. Big hugs

Christuraj Alex

Date: 11/27/2024 7:06:00 PM

"My searching days are through. Because you never looked for me, I will not look for you" - Though seems to be a tit for tat, there is a strong current of love, passion, and the right to express what one feels. Great work.

Eileen Manassian
Date: 11/30/2024 6:11:00 PM

Thank you for that observation. Tit for tat, it might be, but love needs to be reciprocal or what's the point. Thanks for passing by.

Daniel Henry Rodgers

Date: 11/27/2024 4:57:00 PM

Dear Eileen, such a powerful expression of letting go and finding closure. The way you articulate the journey of moving on from unreciprocated love is both heartfelt and relatable. I think your ability to convey complex emotions with clarity is truly admirable. Autumn Blessings, My Dear Friend, Daniel

Eileen Manassian
Date: 11/30/2024 11:55:00 PM

Thank you for your kind comment. My poetry is usually simple. I don't use fancy words or expressions, but write from the heart. Still... I'm glad it conveys the necessary emotion. Thank you for passing by. Blessings

Ilene Bauer

Date: 11/27/2024 12:13:00 PM

wow! this is touchingly beautiful, eileen! i'm sorry that your disappointment in someone was the inspiration for the poem (if this is true - i always think poems tell a true story and am often wrong), but you have managed to get your feelings across in the most lovely poetic way. perfect ending, too!

Eileen Manassian
Date: 11/30/2024 11:57:00 PM

All poems have a spark of truth in them... at least mine are often based on reality. Thank you for passing by and your kind comment. Sending love.

Michael Tor

Date: 11/27/2024 10:01:00 AM

Such a heartfelt Poem Eileen. One can only give so much and when that is not returned you painstakingly move on. You ask yourself how others can be so selfish in this world not to have compassion for another but selfishly not care. I hope this is fiction but I think in our experiences in life we have experienced and felt this form of rejection. Thank you Eileen for sharing such a real and disappointing experience that most of us have gone through. I can really relate to this Quatrain of yours.

Michael Tor
Date: 11/27/2024 11:00:00 AM

Keep having hope Dear Lady and your such a caring daughter to help your dad get through this part of your life. Your love for him and his dependency on you will give you the strength to carry on. There will be better days, and you will be triumphant in your life. Praying for you, your country, you to cope and a cure for your precious father. Hugs to you for all you have faced and the effort put forward in caring for your cherished dad...

Eileen Manassian
Date: 11/27/2024 10:36:00 AM

Thank you for your visit and kind comment. I have been going through a particularly difficult time in my life. There's been war in my country, I'm often alone as my husband travels, and I'm taking care of my 88 year old dad with alzhiemers. I also am on medication for depression. I have found that not many can deal with a person who has daily struggles... that includes family, friends, and loved ones. I'm learning not to be as caring of those who don't invest in me. It's not easy, but... when you spend minutes wondering whom to call because you're on the point of a breakdown... things become crystal clear.

Michael Tor
Date: 11/27/2024 10:05:00 AM

Sadly it only affects those that care and have compassion for the other. I hope if it is real that you can cope and realize they were the wrong choice in this is the message they sent you and know they were not worth it, and there are better people in this world meant for a person as lovely as yourself. God bless you Eileen and may your future partner be as thoughtful and caring as you are...

Anne-Lise Andresen

Date: 11/27/2024 5:21:00 AM

- Oh dear... this was really touching to read... so sad... a lovely poem, Eileen (hope it's not from reality) - hugs

Eileen Manassian
Date: 11/27/2024 10:39:00 AM

Hello, Sunshine. I'm disappointed in a good many people, dear. People who struggle with mental health issues are some of the loneliest people on the planet. Thanks for dropping by.

Aqua Marine

Date: 11/27/2024 4:25:00 AM

I owe you huge apologies, Eileen, for not visiting your poems and commenting, there is no excuse. To go through what you are going through, and to feel alone and abandoned, is not fair on you. You are a sensitive soul, filled with honest openness. And unafraid to express yourself, and say it like it is. It did hurt to read this poem. But it was good to read, because you are being assertive. Boundaries are not just about giving space, but being caring and loving too. ((Hugs)) Aqua.M

Eileen Manassian
Date: 11/27/2024 10:43:00 AM

No you don't, dear. No apologies. I haven't been around to your page either. Lately, I have been going through a great deal of emotional trauma. At least a cease fire has been declared in Lebanon, so that's one less stressful thing to deal with. I'm reevaluating my friendships. I think I'm on the mend. Blessings, dear.