Nightfall

I feel something’s close at hand…it’s hard to unchain myself From angst and utter mortification I feel so lost, swimming on my own…it’s hard to find my way out of this mess I feel like giving up…but I should get up… I feel myself drifting away…each shard of my brain Withers away…just like the day getting devoured by nightfall I feel drenched in silence…I don’t know if I’m going insane I feel like drowning in my shame...But, I’m searching for the rope of hope I must keep trying… It’s about time I put a stop to my senseless crying But, I feel that I’m left to figure my way out of the bemusing maze…but that’s not true Because He is with me...day and night ‘cause He is watching over me… Dousing me with His light… Sometimes, I feel so afraid…but I know a few things that are true: He can mend a broken spirit and a broken heart He can give me relief and hope from high above… He can lead me somewhere safe and save me from the death cart And save my heart from breaking into shards I’m drowning in tears of sorrow and shame… I’m a wandering sheep…getting hunted down like game… I feel stuck in the chambers of my own mind…it’s tough to unchain myself From solitude, but I must snap out of my agitation I still feel like I’ve met my end…around the river bend…I’m left untouched on the shelf I feel like swimming out of the perilous sea…whirling with confusion I’m washing away into the abstract, dynamic ocean…each piece of my heart Is casted away…just like the stone I tossed, skipping to and fro on the river’s surface I fly away from my solitude cage…I promise I won’t break apart…I’ll take heart I will escape my misery…though I’ve doubted my ability to take wing…but I must keep trying… I will try to believe and go the distance… Despite the bizarre sensations I feel…