New Years Tears

A new year has begun which will have it's own highs and lows, trials and triumphs, happiness and sadness. I started my new years with tears as I thanked God for last year, for today, for family, for you and me. And I asked how to help with the trials you'll go through both today and this year, and wanted Him to tell me what to do for you, for us, because I don't want you to suffer anymore, but, to rest, relax and heal. I received no clear answer so I will just continue to cry until something happens, until I know you'll really be okay, until you're somewhere over the rainbow, until you're through the tunnel and out the other side where you can be freely loved by all who love you. I only want, no I need to hold you and be near you, to see your pretty smile and hear you laughing every day, for only then will my life long mission to love you be accomplished. I pray to God and our Lord that this is not only my dream but that it has always been His plan for us both. 1/1/11