New Eyes

I woke up today, with new eyes, I watched the sun slowly rise. I watched the sun kiss the grass, Whispered I’m me at last. I went inside, I hugged my kids, They hugged me back with giant grins. I feel different, accepted in a way. Not by you, that's okay. Embracing myself today. I understand my weird little quirks, I’m starting to see how my brain works. I’m embracing the oddness, releasing the pain. Those years in school, I spent racking my brain. I felt like a puzzle always 1 piece not there, I felt like a cake without icing, so bare. I never understood my true ability, I never uncovered who I was meant to be. “Her clothes line is broken”, repeats in my head. She's challenged, she's different, put her in special Ed. I’m worthless, I can’t, I used to say. I’m stupid, I’m dumb, words I lived by every day. Sarcasm, and jokes aren’t easy for me. I take everything literal, literally. I woke up today and realized, I have hope and fire in my eyes. I don’t feel like a pearl lost at sea, I finally found me, who I’m mean’t to be. Removing the veil, shedding the mask, No longer hiding inside the past. Those days of confusion, feeling so dumb, Are all in the past, I’m autistic 1.