Never Had a Hug
Growing up I never had a hug
Parents were hugging vodka bottles
Grew up in care without a role model
Maybe that's why I find it hard to accept love
I thought sleeping with girls would make my past better
Now every girl I meet judges me on my track record
Sometimes I was sleeping with 2-3 girls a day. 21 a week, don't make me do the math for a year
No matter how much I like a girl, I can't make that disappear
Thought i had a reason cause my Mother never gave me a hug
Sex with these girls gave me some kind of affection,
but I couldn't make it into love
A heart full of pain and a mind with depression
Always looked at love like I never had it so i don't need it
If you don't like me then so be it
There he goes being all defensive
This is me admitting my flaws, this is more than penmanship
Reminisce on my past but I'm not defending it
I'm trying to be stronger and less sensitive
I find It difficult to open up to girls and hug these females
They want to know my past then judge the details
Father died when I was 14, he never showed me how to be a man
Depression had me and wouldn't free my hand
My whole life I despised affection and hated love
Maybe it's because I grew in care and my parents never gave me a hug
Copyright © Alex Duffy | Year Posted 2017
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