Never been good at hiding

I have never been good at hiding At least not from those who truly pay attention I’ve never been good at hiding so instead, I became great at deflecting I slip in words to distract and detract from the attention that is focused on me And when that doesn’t work because so many people do actually care I give just enough to satisfy Because when I say many people care, they only care enough to hear the basics Because going beyond that would take too much time and require too much energy And everyone has their own things to talk about and deal with right? However, watching people prove that I will always come last to nearly everything in life And prove that I will never be as much a priority to them as they are to me gets exhausting So instead, I’ve just started saying I’m fine Im okay Because I’ve never been good at hiding But you were never really looking anyway