Never An Option

I’d like to believe so.... I’d like to believe I’m happy I’d like to believe I have good friends And I’d like to believe they're all drifting away.. future tense Tired of swallowing peoples nonsense Choking on their lies Throwing up my anger All I can do is smile sleep slay Satisfied to my own surprise Afraid of getting hurt Different time same reason Felt like I had nowhere to go I ran to it I embraced it I missed it? Yea, my mom teacher and friend was called treason It’s so different when you’re alone Going places in your head smelling your way back to where you bled It’s outlandish It’s random It’s startling And its different every time One day your game will begin Then u can decide if u like it It’s taking me forever to fill out life’s stupid blank I can never tell what I really want But like a character in a movie I believe someone is writing my role Tears.....come back again some other day I want to learn from them can’t do that away from them For if you wanna watch, you're gonna have to stay I’d like to believe I took the right turn 3rd of November don’t hate me for you might be the worst day of my life I’d like to believe I am strong enough ...but I’ll let it pass Aloofness He fell for it They all did And didn’t see that coming Some say I’m just confused and I’m going to regret it Some say loneliness is iffy Hayfa don’t fall for it I drew smiles on others faces I’m sorry I can’t care I’d like to believe it’s because I love him.. Ima take a risk And if end up happy I would smile And if not, I will not break. I couldn’t let anyone else in I don’t think I even tried Got attached to my escape Words..... Didn’t wanna get hurt someone I cherish once told me it’s going to be worth it And here I am Hating on you for losing me but I have myself to blame now Scared of being by myself.... Yet scared of being with you