Never An Option

I’d like to believe so....
I’d like to believe I’m happy
I’d like to believe I have good friends
And I’d like to believe they're all drifting away.. future tense
Tired of swallowing peoples nonsense 
Choking on their lies
Throwing up my anger
All I can do is smile sleep slay
Satisfied to my own surprise

Afraid of getting hurt 
Different time same reason
Felt like I had nowhere to go
I ran to it
I embraced it
I missed it?
Yea, my mom teacher and friend was called treason

It’s so different when you’re alone 
Going places in your head 
smelling your way back to where you bled
It’s outlandish
It’s random
It’s startling
And its different every time
One day your game will begin
Then u can decide if u like it 

It’s taking me forever to fill out life’s stupid blank
I can never tell what I really want 
But like a character in a movie I believe someone is writing my role
Tears.....come back again some other day
I want to learn from them
can’t do that away from them
For if you wanna watch, you're gonna have to stay

I’d like to believe I took the right turn
3rd of November don’t hate me for you might be the worst day of my life
I’d like to believe I am strong enough 
...but I’ll let it pass

Aloofness
He fell for it 
They all did
And didn’t see that coming
Some say I’m just confused and I’m going to regret it
Some say loneliness is iffy Hayfa don’t fall for it 
I drew smiles on others faces
I’m sorry I can’t care
I’d like to believe it’s because I love him..
Ima take a risk 
And if end up happy I would smile
And if not, I will not break.

I couldn’t let anyone else in
I don’t think I even tried
Got attached to my escape
Words.....
Didn’t wanna get hurt
someone I cherish once told me it’s going to be worth it
And here I am 
Hating on you for losing me
but I have myself to blame now
Scared of being by myself....
Yet scared of being with you

Copyright © | Year Posted 2013



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Date: 2/23/2016 8:47:00 PM
Hayfa, Enjoyed the way you expressed every line. Please keep writing, hope to see a new one from you again. LOVE LINDA
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Date: 1/1/2016 1:19:00 PM
HAYFA, pleasure to read :) HAVE YOURSELF A HAPPY January 1st. ...... SKAT
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Date: 7/29/2013 1:15:00 PM
Great poem.. keep up the hard work and express yourself...love it
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Hay Fa
Date: 11/10/2013 2:30:00 AM
Thank you Suzaanne xoxo
Date: 3/16/2013 7:49:00 AM
- Do not be afraid to live, accept yourself. - We humans can tolerate some pain, we become stronger, we learn. - We can cry, but let the smile come back. - A very good poem Hayfa, I'm glad that I read your poems today - Have a nice weekend. - oxox / / Anne-Lise :)
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Anne-Lise Andresen
Date: 3/17/2013 7:14:00 AM
- You are welcome to read some of mine :) :)
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Hay Fa
Date: 3/16/2013 8:10:00 AM
Thank you so much Anne, this means a lot to me ALL SMILES xox
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