Nervous
Oh, I'm so nervous,
So full of doubt: she's coming home and
I can only shout,
"No, I'm not ready!"
Please hear me out:
You are a child,
Then an elder,
Then infant again.
You are my mother,
I, your daughter
Then it gets all switched around
Only to come back
To the ends of beginnings.
Some tell me, "Detach."
They say, "Pretend you're not the daughter
Pretend you are Just A Caregiver.
Pretend
You have no bond.
After all, you Must Survive!"
Too much history,
Too much blood: she gave me life,
She gave me breath,
She watched me walk, then stumble
Then fall,
Get back up so I could be tall
(like her).
(How can I pretend this didn't happen?).
For now she shuffles,
My ancient elder,
Shuffles
Then stops
Then walks toward me,
Crying out, her arms out wide,
"No more walker! The hell with that!
I'm free! I'm free!
Just leave me Be!
I AM NOT, AFTER ALL,
93!"
(oh, I am so nervous).
Copyright © Barbara Boyd | Year Posted 2014
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