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Narcissist

Finally, I see you—the grim reaper—emanating death. During the time I spent with you, I always gave you my best. You couldn’t deny that you lavished great pride I was in it, but you simply didn’t care. Why? I wept tears of sorrow as you unapologetically walked away. As if comforting me was time borrowed, just another day. I succumbed to depression; in my vulnerability, you blurted out, “I expect you learned your lesson,” with a cruel shout. Why did you do this to me? What have I done deserving of you? Is it fair to receive such treatment that is so cruel? I was in the shadows, invisible and confused and not understood. It all left me wondering in this mystical darkness of falsehood. Now the shoe is on the other foot you are sobbing? My heart, heavy with sacrifices, ached as you kept robbing. Now you are, pleading, tugging on me desperately asking me not to go. You repeatedly emphasized I was a mistake. You were the trailblazer who paid my way. You insisted no one would love me. I would only cause pain. Now, see who is groaning, pleading, and moaning Malevolence exposed by the light. You were fully aware I was the devoted wife. You held me back, grounding my dreams. You uncaringly clipped my wings. The veil has been lifted. The dynamics have shifted. Regrettably, we both missed it. I refused to endure life with a narcissist.

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Date: 8/4/2024 1:35:00 PM
I relate so well to your poetry. Indeed being married to a narcissist is awful. I've been down that road with depression too which comes with it. You always gave your best but he did not care. Why? Because nobody is more important to a narcissist than himself. "I refused to endure life with a narcissist" - A powerful conclusion to your poem which emphasizes your strength to walk away from poison.
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Sherry Beck
Date: 8/6/2024 6:13:00 AM
Thank you. I truly believe that narcissism is predatory. It wasn’t until recently that I realized I was attracting them. Therapy and self-love have set me free. I appreciate your feedback.
Date: 8/2/2024 3:53:00 PM
Kick the egotistical loser to the curb. More fish...
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Sherry Beck
Date: 8/6/2024 6:18:00 AM
Yes, he’s out of my life, and I’m loving myself as best I can. However, I’m not looking for new relationships until I strengthen my weaknesses. Thank you for the encouragement.
Date: 8/2/2024 11:24:00 AM
Your poem powerfully captures the tumultuous and painful journey of breaking free from a toxic relationship. The imagery of the "grim reaper" symbolizes the destructive force that overshadowed your life, while your use of direct and vivid language conveys the raw emotions of betrayal, sorrow, and eventual empowerment. The transition from a place of vulnerability and confusion to one of clarity and self-assertion is poignantly depicted, especially with lines like "the shoe is on the other foot" and "the dynamics have shifted."
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Sherry Beck
Date: 8/6/2024 6:20:00 AM
Thank you, Silent One. I used the term Grim Reaper because I lost my own identity trying to please the darkness in him. Thank you for reading my story and for your great feedback.

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