My Temporary

As I lay in full moons glow Pining for sunrise too take it’s turn I’m trapped in the body of a person I don’t know and with every breath I take it burns My temporary happiness fueled my desire A desire that’ll possibly go away with time I sit yearning with no one left to call on and its no one’s fault but mine Singing the pain from my battered soul my temporary happiness was my only peace through the grime There is no friendship In Pain There’s no love when winters comes a creeping around the courts There’s no reason to reconcile there’s nothing I would gain So I take my retched thought;throw them in the pile and wait to be a corpse. I prepared my tears and perform my pain openly in front of the crowd then I wipe my eyes lean back my head and wait until I’m covered in a shroud. You took the first “out” you saw and I understand I can’t say I blame you Tho through thick and thin I would’ve been by your side; I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t ashamed of you Even those on your side talk to the walls that shut you out Tho you trust their loyalty even tho they’ve given you reason for doubt Friendship is a double sided game There’s nobody to blame except there is and the blame goes on you…except I love you so much and the truth is for you there’s nothing I wouldn’t do. My temporary gain in love and happiness was built on nothing but a lie My temporary pain wasn’t pain at all if anything for a moment it was paradise These temptations are to blame The yearning and desire for they have latched onto me like a parasite And As I lay Wishing I had refrained; i close my eyes and wait for night Tho When I open my eyes all I can see is my reflection in the paradisiacal white I scream in silence For my mind is a void, I’m trapped in my thoughts and something has taken control over my life