My Temporary
As I lay in full moons glow
Pining for sunrise too take it’s turn
I’m trapped in the body of a person I don’t know
and with every breath I take it burns
My temporary happiness fueled my desire
A desire that’ll possibly go away with time
I sit yearning with no one left to call on
and its no one’s fault but mine
Singing the pain from my battered soul
my temporary happiness was my only peace through the grime
There is no friendship In Pain
There’s no love when winters comes a creeping around the courts
There’s no reason to reconcile there’s nothing I would gain
So I take my retched thought;throw them in the pile and wait to be a corpse.
I prepared my tears and perform my pain openly in front of the crowd
then I wipe my eyes lean back my head and wait until I’m covered in a shroud.
You took the first “out” you saw and I understand I can’t say I blame you
Tho through thick and thin I would’ve been by your side; I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t ashamed of you
Even those on your side talk to the walls that shut you out
Tho you trust their loyalty even tho they’ve given you reason for doubt
Friendship is a double sided game
There’s nobody to blame except there is and the blame goes on you…except I love you so much and the truth is for you there’s nothing I wouldn’t do.
My temporary gain in love and happiness was built on nothing but a lie
My temporary pain wasn’t pain at all if anything for a moment it was paradise
These temptations are to blame The yearning and desire for they have latched onto me like a parasite
And As I lay Wishing I had refrained; i close my eyes and wait for night
Tho When I open my eyes all I can see is my reflection in the paradisiacal white
I scream in silence
For my mind is a void, I’m trapped in my thoughts and something has taken control over my life
Copyright © Deasia Luster | Year Posted 2022
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