My Stand

Black velvet sky festoons solemnly my brooding words,
Exudes gloom from my mindly nib, drowned in woes two thirds.
Sharp shrillness of many of my lingering thought,
Shatter silence of stillness that dusk had on to me brought.

Grief laden clouds quiver with culpable guilt,
Blue starry skies shiver around the moon’s curves laden with forlorn silt.
Tonight I write about my past in melancholy laced lines,
About my ceaseless love for her and her conditional love for me at times….

Solitary nights like the one tonight,
Has stored within itself, deep memories like flashing lights.
Nostalgia sewn within its brimming self,
Of holding her in my arms, my warm embrace her body engulfs.


Her conditional love for me and my ceaseless love for her at all times,
Lure the emotions out tonight, to write the melancholy stewed lines.
As I sit here all senses alive to listen to the great black night,
Sans her beside me, tears trickle down filling the beady grass beds and dull my sight.

The shattered silence of the night all dark,
Resonates in my head no more, but my heart leaves a deep bruised scar and a mark.

 
A quaint sound of lament I faintly hear,
From a distance it seems like an echo of my bleeding heart all unclear.
My soul curses me as never before,
As its mate it has lost and has only me to deplore….

Places I go glare at my searching eyes with fervor,
Look out for her as though I wish to go to her.
And my heart too joins the fray,
And both of them conspire for me to seek her any which way.

But now as I no longer love her,
That’s a truth that my mind and my heart must concur.
As I sit and speak to myself, the dew drips on to the leaves,
Tell tales in the silence as the wind touching my voice as it grieves.

like my kisses of before, she is now another’s,

Her dreamy eyes, her warm weatish body, her heart, her joyous smile,
Her sweet body scent, her warm breath that spreads a mile

Are now not for me but for another…………….

I love her no more but maybe I yearn for her love,
But unknown to myself I seek her love somehow!!!
Filled with nostalgic emotions of our sweet oneness
I can barely raise my eyebrows to see us together in my mind’s eye.

I hope this is the last dart cupid has shot at me,
And this is the last verse I pen for her to see
Copyright © | Year Posted 2012

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September 22, 2012 at 1:17 AM
Really good stuff you have here, my friend.
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September 22, 2012 at 12:24 PM
thanks amy.~sashi
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September 21, 2012 at 4:19 PM
A profound piece of retrospection that encompasses the heart. Congratulations on your wonderful win Sashi.
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September 21, 2012 at 8:11 PM
thank you Connie~sashi
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September 20, 2012 at 11:01 AM
Congratulations on your well deserved win in Debbie Guzzi's contest Sashi. Love, Carol
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September 20, 2012 at 12:11 AM
This is indeed a very well written poem of learning to let go. It is filled with great lines, that have great rhythm, and rhymes. It all flows very well. We all must learn to let go sometimes, only then something better will be forthcoming. Thanks for sharing, Sashi! Didn't know you were on the Soup! Guess I haven't posted poems here for quite some time, until just recently.
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September 24, 2012 at 8:10 PM
thanx Caroline.....~sashi
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September 19, 2012 at 5:39 AM
My brother poet, it is an honor to call you so, for in this work we are bonded ... its stellar beauty excavated from the common mine of feelings made sublime by sensitivity. Congratulations ... the imagery is awesome.
Prabhu Avatar
September 19, 2012 at 11:40 AM
thanks for the warm words of appreciation David....~sashi
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September 17, 2012 at 9:23 PM
wow, what a great win, Sashi. I am happy for you that you won this honor. A lot of thought put into this one!!! Congratulations.
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September 19, 2012 at 11:48 AM
thank you Andrea!!!!!!! ~sashi
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September 17, 2012 at 6:21 PM
A profoundly intimate write, masterfull...personification, simile, metaphor and still we hear your accent ;)Congrad's on your win. Light & Love
Prabhu Avatar
September 17, 2012 at 8:44 PM
thank you Debbie.....~sashi
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