My Soul

So much on my mind And I find Nothing is ever as it seems The end of dreams Having hard times So again I turn to my rhymes My brother and his crimes He did so many years Shed a lot of tears He was all I had Made me feel really sad Said it was all lies Time never flies Waiting Hating Promised to protect me From all the bad there be. But he was no longer free People use me then throw me away Hurtful words they say Take all I have not even care If I cry they just stare Try to break my will I am human and I feel So long I've been alone Hiding, remembering what life has shown The hate has grown I keep it inside Deep it does hide Rage does abide I help people most of the time Again I use the word rhyme they don't even know I don't make it a show Do it to fight the hate Not my fate But still for my brother I did wait Time went by The suns many passes through the sky From the world I hid For life I made no bid Waiting for him to come home I had to continuously roam So many nights my body and heart, so cold As I grew old The sun kept passing through the sky Didn't care if I live or die Life has always made me cry Alone Soaked to the bone He finally came home No longer was I alone I invited him into my barn Yeah still a part of this yarn Still he pinky swear it wasn't him that did so bad Made me sad. I believed And I grieved Now I hear you say Just the other day You was to blame Shame A human once again stabbed my heart All these years apart I believed your lie Now I fly You set me to the animals to be used Abused Left behind Nobody could I find Lost my mind To everyone you want me to lie My heart will forever cry I have to walk Never again to you will I talk No sorry same out My heart no longer so stout Crushing to me No other way can I see You thought me well Can you not tell I need no one ever You will see me never I really do forgive But your lie I cannot live Take the barn It is the end of this here yarn Live in my tent And pay the rent Going home to die Will never again cry You killed me Can you not see So much rain Life rubs against the grain Made me insane They are taking me to an adult care house for my last days To late to change my ways want me in their care Sounds fair I don't care no more My soul will never fly I have lived your lie Now I want to die There is no tomorrow No land of no sorrow Nothing left inside No reason to hide Life opens a door You walk through, and life is no more