My Secret Desire

The nightmare wakes me up now, But what can be lost without getting it? Yet sometimes the dream of getting, And the nightmare of losing incessantly! Frightened, terrified, tormented me. One infallible, Unfailing wandering- dear, I love you. I can't forget as much as I want! When I wake up, I see the sky. I see the same sky when I sleep! The sky to fly on my free wing, The sky of my secret love, The sky of my secret desires. I don't want to, I really don't want anything like a beggar. I want to defeat you like a monster, Or want to be accepted as a monk. I want you I want you anyway. My secret God, my supernatural lord, Do I really love you so much? Yes, it’s very spontaneous, It’s something that is always out of My thoughts, plans and very beyond.