My Prayer Number 16

Dear Lord, Forgive me of evil deeds; You can be done with me. I’m a lost soul; I have a heart that’s black and cold. I know I won’t live to be old; That’s what I feel and what I’ve been told. They say you never know what the future holds, But I just want to go away, If you may, you can take me today. I know you know I don’t believe in what I say, Its just anger and pain that never goes away; That’s my inspiration that guides me on my way. Father I try the best I can to be a good man; Though sometimes, I feel like I just don’t give a damn. And I’m sorry for every time I took the devils hand. I’m just a simple creation a victim of temptation, But for real it’s a test of my will, And there’s a lot to improve on still. I keep on going; My is mind clear and open to the unknowing. What are you trying to show me? Because you know me I get distracted easily; But I’m still alive don’t know why you let me survive, Though I do and don’t want to die. I don’t know what I’m saying my mind’s so twisted, People keep telling me I’m so gifted, But nothing I do or they say can, can seem to get me lifted. I feel so low feeling like I’m stuck in the same hole, But I keep my head up and get up and go, Because whatever I felt yesterday that’s where that feeling stays, And I appreciate that you make feel anew everyday. Father I’m ready for a change because I cant keep living the same, And it’s so true, Breaking old habits is hard to do. So I’m sorry for my actions that disrespect you; You know truly who and how I am. Please forgive me father for being a troubled young man, I am trying the best I can. Amen. -bkmjr 2011-