My Prayer

I try to sleep wondering.... Just what went wrong with the day? Was it the decisions that were made? Or how I made them ? What was really at play...? Did I overthink the answer Or did I not ponder enough Should I have gotten a second opinion... Or left it floating above? Did I pray about it.... Like really pray... fervently. Or did I leave it to chance As I would normally. I may have been scared Maybe doubted just a bit Sat on the idea for too long Never thought for once I could quit! So I lay here just wondering... As the answers scream at me. It overwhelms my heart Yet few words express how I feel I blame myself, even though I don’t say it Ashamed and saddened with guilt! I could have lifted my head up More often than I would like to admit! Now I confess, repent For the choices that were made That drove me further away As I now realize just what YOU GAVE! What was left to me What was left to us! It was written to all As we work on our faith and trust! Now that I say these words, I finally go to rest. Knowing that I could have done better, So tomorrow .... I will give it my BEST!