My Pen Is Loaded

My pen is loaded and I'm not taking any prisoners I've been held hostage by depression for too long, so I'm sorry for not having many visitors I've been going through it, and have spent many nights fighting But now I'm back with a pen that's as powerful as a punch from Mike Tyson I'm the kind of beast that the jungle lacks my pen is loaded, But I may spare you as a humble act I'd rather listen to Rakim, Nas and Big Pun than today's mumble rap Call me Muhammad Ali because I sting like a bee and you won't bumble back You may knock me down I may have lost a round But by the end of the fight, I'll be the one who's got the crown to the girl who said she couldn't go out with me because I used to self harm I still hope you find happiness, but to be truthful I felt it hard I'm 6 years free from Self-harm, and at least I was honest about my past Forget covering up, I'd rather be without a mask I'll take the judgment from people who aren't worthy of my time in order to move forward you sometimes have to leave people and things behind I never fitted in, was ridiculed and Bullied, but now I'll snap back and be on your head Because this is my new era, I wonder how many understand the punchline I just said The girl I'm in love with, wants to play with my emotions instead of living happily ever after Unsure if I should shut the book on her, or if I'm trying to write her into the wrong chapter Well at some point I'll find out I'm just writing everything in my mind out Some will say I should take a time out or maybe find something happier to rhyme about I know a professional writer would have took some of these lines out But I'd rather be a flawed writer than be like your favourite rapper who has ghosts My pen is coming for necks so much that my pad choked Sometimes I talk reckless, so take some of what I say with a pinch of salt But I take responsibility for my actions, when you don't even take an inch of fault If I switch it up one more gear, I'll leave the dictionary naked and the thesaurus confused I paid the price for my mistakes, but this generation cannot afford the truth Faithful to my relationships, but I'd cheat on any girlfriend If Demi Lovato said she wanted me and her to be If I get caught, I'd just say It may have been Shaggy but it wasn't me Some reading this will say lines like that shouldn't have a place in any art I was just making a few jokes please don't take it to heart My nightmares are now being chased through the dark By a pen wielding poet who's using his weapon to torture his own demons Everyone's going to hear what I have to say, especially those who left me alone screaming If you want someone to treat you better then go and listen to Shawn Mendes Or maybe go to a group and form friendships I fell and now I'm back up, ready to have some fun and good times Leave my past fears and failed attempts at love behind I've finally started to see my own worth I'm back with a loaded pen after leaving depression in the dirt I've said it before and I'll say it again I'm the white Mike Tyson This poem is done, now I'm off to my next poem, which I will now start writing