My Own Heaven

I've been dragged through hell and been told everything I did was wrong Neglected by my family, bullied and made to feel like I don't belong Teachers didn't help, making a mistake was my best lesson Life handed me pain, but I made my own heaven I've been a man since before my tenth birthday Had to play the adult role since my birth date Passed around foster families I would hide in my room Had a vision that I'd be saved soon I'm far from perfect, but don't care what you think Alcoholic family, so I grew up scared of the drink I sip slow and drink rare I write all day, so don't expect me to have any ink spare I've had more one night stands than relationships I'm not proud of it, but I'm not ashamed either It was supposed to heal me, but made the pain deeper When love came my way, I didn't know what to make of it My parents never showed me it, so how could I accept it elsewhere? I had to learn how to love myself and begin some self care I was comfortable with a certain girl, but couldn't let her get closer I was happy enough writing poetry in my room with my Tupac and Eminem posters Instead of crying over those who hurt me, I learned to laugh alone I made myself a king even if I don't have the throne I found comfort being by myself and stopped sleeping around and using girls I was dragged through the ugliness, but made my own beautiful world My scars became a victory sign My wounds will all heal in time My smile became real and my tears vanished I found happiness with myself, and fixed my heart's damage I've been dragged through hell and been told everything I did was wrong Neglected by my family, bullied and made to feel like I don't belong Teachers didn't help, making a mistake was my best lesson Life handed me pain, but I made my own heaven