My Nights Is Getting Colder

I feel like my nights is getting colder... There's a lot of weight on my shoulders.... So much pain that I can't take.... So many smiles that I try to fake... Living in a world with black walls.... Walk a little then fall in deep holes.... Try to reach high to see the light... But there's no strength left to fight... Use a pray for one rain drop.... Wishing to go back in time or make it stop.... Drowning pictures with my salty tears.... Starting a new life and throwing all of my life years.... All what I do is fantasize.... So I can believe that I'm a live.... I feel problems cutting my throat... And darkness is getting over my thoughts... I'm paralyzed and I can't make a sound.... I'm in a place that no one can find.... So I go back to god and pray.... Cause he knows what's inside with no words to say... Maybe god will wash my sins.... And maybe my tragedy soon will ends....