'my Nightmare'

I walked around for hours hoping it was a dream that my life will go back to normal as soon as I open my eyes I could feel them looking at me with pity on their faces damn don't they know I don't need it it is just a dream can't they see the smog? Vision so hazy it can only be a dream the maze just has no ending I need to get away away from all the shadows away from yesterday what is that thing about if you wish hard enough it will come true I wonder if I wish to start things over will she still be next to me? I still see her face all cut up guess it's not a dream I can see it all so clear damn I wish I took her with the car that day instead of her going by train please God, please can we go back? can we go back to yesterday? When her laughter made me laugh when her touch made me feel all warm inside with just a simple touch I knew that I was home damn I wish this was a dream that she could walk through our front door.. Our house no longer a home just an empty space her footsteps has gone quiet they say it will get easier when, please tell me when? this aching need to have her close by - will be a distant dream I’m tired, so very tired of putting up a brave face when I know she's watching me just crumbling away damn I wish this was a dream and she would wake me up with the words - "Honey, I brought you, your morning cuppa" 280820110000 *I initially wrote this from a guy's perspective for a contest which required us to use a pseudonym :)* Written by Wilma Neels