My Mistake

I'm trying to forget about some of the things I do and say. But how can I forget when you remind me every day? You know that I love because I gave you my heart, so long ago when the night didn't seem so dark. But now the night is darker than ever before. And the daylight is shorter because my sun doesn't shine anymore. You see we both gave into something we didn't trust but the force was so strong, it was stronger than the both of us. So I gave you my heart and you gave me yours, as we started on our path love set the course. But then I got lost and gave into temptation and it drove you away and it was the separation that we still feel today that we cant get past. Like everything changed and happened so fast, that it can never be the same, as much as we want it to, but we still maintain so what do I have to do, to make u see that she was just a mistake. And I'm sorry that I hurt you but I can't replace what I've done, no matter how much I want to. And you still can't let go of that past that haunts you. And it's a constant reminder when I look in your eyes. You say that you love me but I see the pain that's inside. And I know you try your best to keep it from me. But then it manifests as it keeps you company. And it takes you over as it takes you away from me. And the further you go the louder I scream. Not out loud but inside at myself, because I know for what I did there is no help. And tho the trust is gone, there has to be a way. So I admit that I'm wrong and I beg you to stay, because all I want, is your forgiveness and then love that you gave, that I first witnessed. So please believe me when I say, that I'm so mad at myself for that mistake. And I'm only human and at that I'm a man. And I'm full of mistakes but it was never my plan, or my choice. So please just listen, hear my voice. As I scream to the heavens, in you I rejoice. So please I'm begging you, for goodness sake. Please just forgive me for my mistake.