My Little Suicide Note

My little suicide note Despite my poverty Despite my ugliness You have always been a princess You made me feel like a King When roads got narrow You stood by me You understood my pain You gave me joy on the way Though it was never meant to last My heart is corroded Like a old can I am giving up even though I am a man I am tired of crying like a lost child Depressed as I can be my loneliness eats me I wish someone would carry me But turns out I am all alone I love you but I have to go I wish you were here to see me See me before I take my last breath away If only I had a real reason to stay But the pain I go through every day doesn't My cry is loud yet silent My words are meaningless yet important And for you I wish the best I wish I could say goodbye directly This message is the best way to say it Please don't moan for me Because surely where I am heading is better By Walter Mafokate©