My Life In 51 Lines

My Life in 51 Lines My life, what sets me apart? What makes me different? My choices, good or bad The things I do and decisions I made are what make me, me I lived to fit in. I blended in with the world which I was raised in I chased after what people told me would make me happy I had my own selfish ambitions I wanted to make it big. I wanted to be known by all That’s what they told me would make me happy But that life never satisfied No matter how many girls I was with No matter how much money I had No matter how popular I was No matter how good at sports I was It was never enough. I was never truly satisfied It was like I was trying to quench my thirst by eating salt. It only made me more thirsty I thought I was chasing after what I wanted But contentment and happiness kept on eluding me It was just out of my grasp If only I could have “that” I would be happy But I didn’t know what “that” was I thought it was my fault, I wasn’t doing enough That’s why I wasn’t happy That did nothing but send me to a pit of self-consciousness and lack of self worth I based my identity on what I did, but it was never enough. It never satisfied But in stepped Jesus and just at the right time His love never fails, it never gives up, it never runs out on me These words stuck. It made me wonder A light bulb moment happened and it all made sense Jesus was no longer just the answer to my hermeneutics test He was my personal Lord and Savior, our relationship began I was shown that my own deeds will never satisfy me or save me This was hard to grasp, it was all I ever had known But Jesus showed me to trust in his grace alone That’s all I had to do My identity is now found in Christ Sounds cliché, but I was born again My old life is now just a memory Do I regret what I did? No. I’m able to learn from what I did and see how I was wrong I trusted in myself, but I needed a stronger power source, and that’s what I got in Christ Now I live for Him, to bring glory to Him, not me Who am I to seek pride? I am but a mist that appears and fades I’m a second in the motion picture of God I am temporary, but my God is forever He remains strong even when I am gone My future? I don’t know what it holds All I know is that I will serve Him, not me My old self is no more, I’ve been made brand new Now I’m going to do what my God made me to do