My Last Words

I thought it was a change when I realized it was strange emotionally I feel drained I'm nothing but a shame I'm out here crying for help all I think about lately is death I feel like a lost soul that's been knocking on people's door seeking for help but seems like their doors are ignored between me and happiness I built a thick wall All I need is a shoulder to cry on Till my happiness is woke before dawn can someone help me before I do something wrong you got no idea of pain I endure I'm even holding a pen writing a suicide note hopefully that's what you won't ignore when I'm gone I'll never come back because you never cared when I was still sad I know I'm a lost soul,I know I lost hope pain changed my heart into a hard stone Been stabbed inside and left to die alone I shouldn't let you in my comfortable zone I hope you won't cry when you find this note but express pain and shame I endured