My Last Letter

No one can be happy all of the time But for me I can never find happiness And every day is a struggle for survival Fill with pain and hurt and loneliness. I try to find understanding in the world But there are no time outs for my situations And every second that goes by My life is sinking deeper in depression Then one night the sunshine’s on me And the hope of love and happiness came And a bright future seems reachable But to that sunshine" my love was just a game And my heart become over ridden with pain And my soul accepts the suffering that arrive And no matter how hard I try to fight it My mind is saying take your own life For love is a powerful universal emotion That every one of us so dearly seeks And it can make our life whole and complete And when we don’t get it our will to survive gets weak Trying to live with depression was hard enough But now knowing I found love that I couldn’t save It’s just more than I can take right now And the grim reaper is calling me to the grave Yes I do have the love of all my family But family love is complexly different love It could never protect you with any comfort When you are hurt by the girl you dreams of And just the though of some one else holding her When she was the one to be your future wife I just could not take the pain ands suffering So please forgive me god as I plan to end my life People will say what a fool he was to do that No woman is worth for you to die for But it’s easy to say that because they don’t know How much I really really truly loved her and every second living without her its just to much pain,to much pain without her voice her touch her smell i am so tired of hurting ,so tired of hurting Suicide thoughts are buried deep into my mind And every day is coming closer to the end And I give in for my mind now control me Very soon it will be fulfill, but no one knows when