My heart beat of scare
When I saw someone I don't know crossing the rode near my window,
I wouldn't have mind at all.
But I saw someone wearing the same pullover you always wore and I complimented you in,
When I stopped, I noticed my heart beating incredibly fast.
,,Do I still have feelings for him?"
But shame covered my eyes.
I instantly looked away from the boy and walked immedietly away.
It wasn't love,
It was scare.
Never did a boy scare and ashame and make me think about my actions so much.
If I would forgive you,
Even though you did never apologied,
My life would've been much more peaceful because in my mind,
I would draw you, in my Garten walking my dog.
But I could never lend you my dog.
I want that it will resolve quickly,
I think that's why I yesterday smiled at you again for the first time after months.
Still I want to understand myself and ignore you till my death if it's needed to.
Don't like you at all.
Acting like I just don't care.
I am in the middle,
And I am not proud of me either not knowing what I want,
But why did you made me like that?
I am 20,
And always when you sit near me,
I feel the need,
To cry again.
Copyright © Adna Demiri | Year Posted 2024
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