My Heart

My heart is like a lonely sparrow; Darting to one potential ‘mate’, But leaving before getting comfortable. Never happy with whom it finds. But when I first laid eyes on you, my heart learned how to be still, how to expand my love to one being. You. My heart learned how to be like a cat, never letting go; my love never wandering. Never faltering. When you took my heart and abused, toying with it ‘til you bored, throwing it away like a rag doll. I shrank to a mouse. I felt smaller, and vulnerable, feeling I could be swept away with the wind. I felt so fragile. I gradually learned how to be brave. Alert, and cautious. But something else changed. I learned how it was to be without feeling. A heart can mislead you, use you. Take away your feelings. It could hurt you. I learned to judge my heart first. And this time, my heart and mind, say I can love you. You can’t hurt me.