My Final Journey

In despair, I contemplate ending my miserable disease-ridden life! My body is damaged beyond repair And so intense is the anguish that I can barely bear. I'm a worthless mess helpless , a broken man and my future is just infirmity and agony so I’ve decided it all ends tonight… so I will exit and leave the world to be a better place leaving nothing but only broken dreams and fading thumbprints…Not a rope, a blade, a fire, a plunge or pills it was, but to live each day, was stealing my soul! so I opened the door of death. Then, the sword of time will pierce my heavy heart I go up to my dusty desk to inscribe this last poem Death in purple ink of fatigued pen betrays the written yearning on a parched paper. As the sand begins to pile up and time begins to run out; I will put myself to eternal sleep now And I promise you that I won’t wake up tomorrow Saying goodbye is not the hardest part, By dawn, this family will have one less member but I have become a part of your life, It’s just that I can’t bear to lose you… Remember me for the good times we had together and I hope that I made a memorable place in all your hearts and touched each and every one of you in a special way My crystal tears smudge the silky bed-sheet Death is laughing as I cry; so I smile to conceal all my lies! To snatch my miserable soul, ruthless death beckons me my life sheds the skin of my body that splits apart, and the crimson blood starts to spill on the floor a pool of my deliberate death… I’m sad - because I showered you with all my love and affection because I won’t be there when you are dolled up as a blushing bride because I won’t be there when you take matrimonial vows because I won’t be there to see your children grow I will die tonight in a shower of my own blood while my ruby red tears blend with my poetic remains to read this last of my poem, aloud! My pyre below me feel like cozy cushions under my head and ashes like malleable mattress When you see my corpse is being carried away - don't lament, shed any tears, or feel sorry Don’t have crystal drops pouring down your pretty face because I’ll see from you above the azure skies as I’ll blend in five elemental Constituents No sadness, no funerals - only goodbye as the lamp of life extinguishes. Please pray that I find a new painless world and happiness as I enter Almighty’s abode! and fulfill a last wish of a lonely broken man - It is my yearning to be cremated on this desert island and let my ashes be blown into the sands of Bahrain, amid fireworks, and whisper a final ‘Adieu’ - when I depart for my final journey!