My Faults

I struggle with monogamy
Not due to lack of interest 
Or attracton
Certainly not lack of love

It's out of fear that I cheat
Because I expect it 
When you've learned to overanalyze 
you hear lies in every sigh

Any time spent apart turns to
A guilt filled question mark

I love you, with every part of my being
My heart 
My soul

But right now I'm too broken to be loved
I'm self conscious 
Questioning...

I swear I used to be emotionally mature
But I don't feel so now
I don't know if I'm ready

And it's not fair for me to ask
So I won't 

But I dream that you wait until I am
Copyright © | Year Posted 2019

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Linden Avatar
October 7, 2020 at 11:49 PM
I will
Addams Avatar
October 8, 2020 at 6:50 PM
Fate isn't finished with us.
Young Avatar
July 3, 2019 at 10:54 AM
Love the honesty here. I'm also struggling with issues of emotional maturity. And I also feel too broken to be loved. I definitely relate. ~Much love.
Krutsinger Avatar
June 26, 2019 at 8:01 PM
A heartfelt honest poem, which shows a man who understands the value of self-reflection. Welcome to Poetry Soup, Zach.
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