My Faults

I struggle with monogamy Not due to lack of interest Or attracton Certainly not lack of love It's out of fear that I cheat Because I expect it When you've learned to overanalyze you hear lies in every sigh Any time spent apart turns to A guilt filled question mark I love you, with every part of my being My heart My soul But right now I'm too broken to be loved I'm self conscious Questioning... I swear I used to be emotionally mature But I don't feel so now I don't know if I'm ready And it's not fair for me to ask So I won't But I dream that you wait until I am