My fault

It's heavy on my heart, the weight I bear, Feeling it was my fault, I can't help but stare. Three months of love, now lost in regret, I blame myself, filled with deep-set fret. His laughter, once a joy, now haunting me, In my mind's echo, where I wish to be free. His touch, once cherished, now laced with blame, I carry the burden of sorrow and shame. We dreamed of forever, but I stumbled and fell, My mistakes shattered what we had, I can tell. A love once promising, now marred and scarred, Leaving me broken, with defenses charred. Though time moves forward, guilt holds me tight, In the shadows of remorse, I dwell in the night. A chapter of love, tainted by my wrong, In the darkness, where I feel I belong. I know it's my fault, I can't escape this truth, In my heart's solitude, I search for a sleuth. For forgiveness, from him and from me, To find peace in the storm of what used to be. I cry in the silence, for the love I let go, For the pain I caused, for the hurt I now know. Three months of joy, now drowned in my regret, I'm sorry for the love lost, I'll never forget.