My 'Disability'

I'm not broken, 
dont look down on me,
dont push me around. 
dont laugh when I ask a question in class.
dont smirk when Im confused.
dont make faces at me when you think im not looking

I have as Aspergers. 

Did any one ever relize that 'Disability' is limiting in itself?
the prefex, Dis- it means not or no
the core is able meaning capable
then put together it is saying 
Not Able
Not capable
How do you think we feel,
when all we ever hear is your not able,
or you cant do it?

Then we add in Highschool to the mix.
The devil's playground.
A brewing pot of confusion
loads of people figureing out who they are.
Anger overflowing from arguments at home,
Sleep-deprived from fear of failing expectaions.
Now just to stir thigs up a bit,
Lets not give them coping skills,
and make it a social taboo to get help.

Im not a monster becuase I dont cry at the movies. 
Im not a killer because blood doesnt faze me. 
Im not mute becuase I dont want to talk to you.
Im not weak becuase I choose not to fight.
Im not deaf because I dont care about gossip.
Im not stupid becuase I dont waste my time on celeberties.
Im not a freak becuase I dont fit into your social groups.

Im just a 16 year old girl, 
that can feel lost in a world of unspoken expectations. 
Stumbling deaf in a spoken maze.

dont take a walk in my shoes,
because I dont want to be barefoot.
But some understanding would be nice.

Sometimes I need a hug, or a comforting glance, 
or maybe a few gentle words by chance.

Copyright © | Year Posted 2017

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Date: 6/1/2017 12:02:00 PM
Such a beautiful poem, ehen you were describing that I m not this and that I feel like you re describing me, I m 15 year old guy and i ve a little defet in my tongue(I can t speak c,s and z ) whenever I speak people started to laugh so I just gave up, I now didn t speak much, however I m new on this site and would really appreciate if you could find time to read my poems and give your honest reviews about them
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Elissa Quigley
Date: 6/1/2017 6:12:00 PM
thank you for your comment and for sharing that part of your life with me. I relate to you, not with speech specifically, but with other parts. I'll go read your poems now. thank you again
Date: 5/11/2017 10:21:00 PM
Hugs to you Elissa. Fantastic and important write. I wish you ease of being ...comfortable shoes (I love your line the best!) Write on dear poet. xomo
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Elissa Quigley
Date: 5/12/2017 7:00:00 PM
Thank you for the encoragement!!
Date: 5/4/2017 12:56:00 PM
Beautifully written Elissa, you certainly aren't broken. Thanks for sharing.
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Elissa Quigley
Date: 5/12/2017 7:00:00 PM
Thank you tim!!!
Date: 5/3/2017 2:50:00 PM
amazing poet
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Elissa Quigley
Date: 5/3/2017 2:58:00 PM
Thank you Eye!!
Date: 5/3/2017 1:09:00 PM
I am an Asperger, stutter and have Tourette's, and I am completely myself, and as far as I am concerned, completely normal too! Great poem, and good you bring it umnder the attention :)
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Darren White
Date: 5/3/2017 1:24:00 PM
You're most certainly not alone. Here we are a gathering of people with all sorts of (dis)abilities, and we write amazing poetry :)
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Elissa Quigley
Date: 5/3/2017 1:13:00 PM
Thank you Darren. It is nice to hear that I'm not 100% alone in this struggle.