My Dearest Mandy

My Dearest Mandy Girl, my beautiful Child – into my life you came. I gave you your first name, for a while my last name. You were a bright light in my life – that shone, radiating hope, that, now fades, is almost gone. I feel it in my heart, my soul, every day at dawn realizing, in pain, once again, I will not be seeing you, my Grandson, having fun, wondering ?, what to do as this life, these times, experiences slip away. Lost forever, never to be known again, so I pray that whatever it is ?, will change one day ! I call you daily, once, twice, your phone rings and rings You see it, you know it, you hear it, but nothing it brings to my ears, but itself, not a sound, not a word, not a whisper, a thought, a feeling have I heard. Not an explanation as to what this is all for ?, as I see, as I feel you slowly close the door. That death bell sounds, it doth toll, it rings out loud - in my heart – with strife, strife that, with all else, has stolen my soul, taking piece, of what little is left of my life ! B. J. “A” 2 April 29th 2002