My Dear, Please Understand

My Dear, Please understand. You cant force your light upon him. You might be the reason he smiles while his eyes squint and sparkle. His laughter will certainly affirm your clever humor. You will impress him with well-earned accomplishments. Your impeccable wit will not go unnoticed. He may even feel affection and empathize with your sincere words or actions. You will undeniably allure him. My dear, please understand. You are truly worthy, you won't be to him. You will choose him, he won't choose you. He can't. My dear, please understand. His rejection is not a reflection of you. His actions reflect something much bigger than you. He is at war with demons you can't comprehend. These demons whisper to his mind and dance on his heart. They represent the weaknesses within him. My dear, You possess a servant's heart but you are no servant of the demons that play on his. We are all at war, you too have demons. Demons are relentless creatures sent from the depths of Hell they ravage and destroy our very being, if we allow. There is no reasoning, no alliance that can be made with demons. They will consume you from the inside. My dear, please understand. It's not him. It's his demons he has allowed to rule over him. This is a solo war that can't be fought from the outside. You cannot save him. You cannot save him. You cannot save him. Only he can save himself. And you must prioritze the war you are fighting. You must save yourself. My dear, please understand. He is not the validation that you need. His actions should not reflect your value to yourself or to him. He is not your father's rejection. His sweet carress will not requite the man of your past who was once not so gentle. His affection is not sufficient in replacing the empty hole expanded by doubt, abandonment, and anguish you sanctioned your demons to create within yourself. My dear, Your tenacious nature and relentless love will not be disregarded. Your weaknesses, the demons who dance on your heart will surely capture the attention of his very own demons. My dear, please understand. If granted; the demons that consume him will gladly consume you too. -Ashley Johnson