My Beautiful Bones

My Beautiful Bones
By LoLa

I cant ignore this feeling in my mind.  

Words are short in supply and I dont know why

Will I die when i stop to rest a while?  

Will i crumble to the ground once I stop to breathe?

As the life drains from my hopeless eyes, will I even care?

Im so scared of dying but its all I can think about.  

Im sick of this agony 

...the business end of a knife from yesterdays ghosts.  

Dont leave me here alone with my mind.  

Don’t let me die
Cause I cant seem to save myself this time.  

But its not up to you, it should be up to me

Giving in to the freedom of life released from the relentless grips of my eternal demons

it all seems so nice but pain is all I leave behind.  

Stop caring for me please.  
I hate feeling guilty for being in pain

Let go of everything that I’ll never be.
Let go of the happiness you gave to me

Its all too much for me to bear
These nightmares are real and its not fair

Between my legs biology betrays my mind

I cry every time I find it there
It shatters my conscious mind into a million pieces

Hideous sags and creases where beauty belongs

Im too depressed now

so please take these words and write me a song
A song that never ends like the rays of the sun

Im hopelessly losing my fragile mind to the carnivors

They praise my vessel
They prAise my lies
They take my sunshine as I die

Slowly, slower, every single time

Where is the end?  
I wanna go
Oh, Please let me go...
Copyright © | Year Posted 2019

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