My ADHD

Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder
What does that mean?
Does it mean I'm unmotivated,
Just a lazy teen?
I think there's so much more
Maybe I'm misunderstood
It could be the reason
Why I can't just be good

Throughout my life
I've been judged and brought down
For my actions, my emotions
So I set them down;
I put up my mask
To protect myself
So I can look normal
But it doesn't always help

My mind still wanders
My Attention still lacking
This Deficit in my mind
But I keep on acting;
I'm too Hyperactive
My grades reflect it
The Disorder in my life
It's all too hectic

But that's besides the point
There's more to the story
I was put on medication
And it works for me;
My mind is reeled in
I'm much more focused
But there are some things
That I'm beginning to notice

I don't feel myself
My throat is more dry
I can't bring myself to eat
And I think I know why;
They said some of this would happen
But they never could prepare me 
For the mental meat grinder
I'd experience daily

The day begins
I take my meds
And so begins the fight
For order in my head;
I'm focused in class
My Attention truly there
But the lack of feeling
Leaves my day bare

Once the meds wear off
And I'm left alone
The feelings explode
So I become their drone;
I become more impulsive
My feelings take over
I have too much energy
And I lose all my focus

Everything's harder to do
I forget all of my work
My life's still unorganized
And my head's getting worse;
I spiral, I fall
Lost in my thoughts
By the time I'm back
Everything's gone

The due date is past
I'm beginning to panic
Am I bad kid?
How do I manage?
Too many priorities
So much to do
But I can't give up
I must push through

I'll take my meds
Since they can help me focus
Will they help others?
I don't fully know this;
I encourage those struggling
With ADHD like me
To give them a try
And maybe you'll see

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