Multiple Sclerosis An Invisible Disease

My heart hurts my soul is depleted I used to walk around feeling so undefeated The pain is at a tipping point & I just can't beat it My brain is killing me & my body follows suit Sometimes I wonder if I should just pick it up & shoot Early morning headaches feel like a tumour Take 12 of these it'll make relief come sooner Spinal tap & a few MRI's later They say more pills will make my chances greater Side effects put me in a dark place Im scared when I look in the mirror I'll see my killers face But my son shouldn't have to live through that disgrace Why me is the answer I want to know When I pray where do those thoughts go I tried to be the best person I could But my life is like a scalpel trying to cut through wood Pull myself up by my boot straps like you knew I could I can't  say it any clearer but you still misunderstood