Multiple Sclerosis An Invisible Disease

My heart hurts my soul is depleted 
I used to walk around feeling so undefeated 
The pain is at a tipping point & I just can't beat it

My brain is killing me & my body follows suit 
Sometimes I wonder if I should just pick it up & shoot
Early morning headaches feel like a tumour 
Take 12 of these it'll make relief come sooner 

Spinal tap & a few MRI's later 
They say more pills will make my chances greater 
Side effects put me in a dark place 
Im scared when I look in the mirror I'll see my killers face
But my son shouldn't have to live through that disgrace 

Why me is the answer I want to know 
When I pray where do those thoughts go 
I tried to be the best person I could 
But my life is like a scalpel trying to cut through wood 
Pull myself up by my boot straps like you knew I could 
I can't  say it any clearer but you still misunderstood
Copyright © | Year Posted 2019

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De Beaulieu Avatar
March 12, 2019 at 6:01 PM
Hello Christopher Nova, I have friends that has in their way of doing thing Word Hobpthe same illness as you. They just try to do the best they can with whatever they want to doing things in their own way. Word Hobo and i will pray for you. Have a nice evening my friend.
Nova  Avatar
March 12, 2019 at 6:09 PM
Thank you sooo much. I definitely appreciate it
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