Much-Desired Change

Change isn’t my favorite friend But, it will help me out in the end Strange how time flies over here And still, I am alive without a fear I desire change in my life nowadays I am on fire and this strife has a way To get into my skin and it hurts in many ways I am in my empathetic empire today Tell me you love me the way I am I am in my shell as you can see right now Spell out my name upon your heart, my darling lamb I am in this hell as you can clearly see somehow I desire change... It’s so strange... How much I want to be like you How much I would like to be true I desire change... It’s so strange... How much I appreciate someone like you How much it means to me to see you smile like you do Low self-esteem Makes me want to scream I must be dreaming... I see others beaming... I’m living a dream, a lovely dream Yet a nightmare in disguise...in disguise... Your love is like coffee and cream Fell in love with so many girls and guys... Bipolar and it’s complicated I deal with this dual...jaded In my brain of insanity and pure vanity Childlike happiness and its challenges change me completely Childhood challenges and its chores change me dramatically I deal with this cruel... Feeling of loving you... I desire change To straighten me up To man me up again... I desire change To straighten me up To uncurse me, miracle weaver I’m still a believer, I’m sure... Be my cure Again, where have you been? Where have you been? You changed. It’s strange that I’m deranged You’re my everyday daydreamer Fallen in love with the puppet on a string The devil in my mind tells me otherwise Calling your name, my love darling But you ignore me and everything Don’t seek me - I’m not wise...it’s all lies... Am I foolish or smart in His eyes? Bronze diamond of mine, Friend of mine...you’re giving me an alarming sign... A sign of leaving me behind I was so blind...so blind...don’t mind me, being blind... You left me to change on my own All alone in this world of empty woe You stole from me this heart of gold You mold me into this piece of worthlessness untold What about you set me free though? You left me to strangle myself in strange satisfaction so bold... The rest of me is an unanswered phone Strange how you and I change oh so substantially I must be brave and rise from my ashes vigorously Change isn’t my favorite friend But, it will help me out in the end