Mother of My Mother

Remember when they thought my heart will commit a suicide ramming at the ribs but you prevent opening my chest saying how heart just need some more time you knew how people change when they cut them open and bleed them out then the tissues collide and some new fluid fills the void you didn't want me to change and loved me just the way I am mother of my mother I apologize if I have interrupted the cycle couldn't let you go (with unwashed hands) then wingless horse died in my arms now discontinued souls lay scattered all over the chessboard and I don't know will love endure mother of my mother your body was fully equipped for death (couldn't let you go) so I tried to seize that residual ray of hope and paint the light but you missed the number lily from our garden faded away and our family puzzles went on a rampage the absence flipped their masks (you always said nothing is for nothing) I saw them in the churchyard they had currency in their cry as your face changed I could felt how all voids went drained and the last piece of my tears fell next to the resting (there was no new fluid)