More To Me - Mty

More to me – MTY More than ever, pain-free means more to me than ever before. When you have been wailing and keening in pain you will understand. Before this pain, I would have said God, my family and my life means the most. However, after this pain, I have to say being pain-free means more than I ever thought possible. Life does not mean as much to me as it did before, because I found myself begging for death. I have a spiritual belief that death is going to be the start of a new life, a rebirth, a wonderfulness Such as we cannot possibly fathom in this earth life. I was begging God to take me, to give me this. However, He would not let me go, so I have to say there is more for me to do here. But what? Is it to be a role model? Is it to build people up to their best degrees? Is it to talk about pain? Am I to finally start my creative writing center/art center for children? If so, where is the money? There has to be money for it, because I do not have it. So is this it? I should be praying for whatever God is planning, but at this minute, I have no plan for it is has not been placed in my heart yet. I am waiting, because I now know there is more for me to do. God is love. God is benevolence. He would not have kept me in a torturous, keening wailing screaming state, unless there was a plan. So I know there is more, and I am listening. I am praying. I am here, God. Let me know, please. I am your servant, and I am willing. Just let me know. Please. I am more than ever your servant now. Written 6-6-2016 Contest: More to Me Poetry Contest Sponsor: William Kekaula