More Than I Am

I pull my blinds down shut to end another day An eerie silence fills the halls with lonesomeness and decay I draw my sheets back and clear the thoughts inside my head Because the quietness breaks my heart when im alone in bed I turn the T.V. on to turn the emptiness down I hear the voices speaking, but I can't make out the sounds I look at my bible filled with guilt and shame inside I havent picked it up to read for quite some time And with hell I look up to my ceiling and cry Have You abandoned me too for ever leaving Your side Lord just light the way and I will come back home Lead me back to that place I was once before I know I havent prayed, because I have been afraid I know I let You down and I was scared of what You might say Forgive me for ever thinking I could do this on my own Please give me strength so that I can carry on And help me turn these pages once again So that I may be all I'm meant to be in the end A better friend, a better son, and a better brother A better uncle, nephew, cousin, and a better lover Teach me to be a father who leads his child with strong hands Because I know that You made me to be more than I am *JJF* 4/18/2013