More of Me

My all wasn't enough, So I gave you even more of me
But now i'm doing what's right for myself, I'm ready to face whatever life has in store for me
People tried to break me down, yet I still tried to find a way to make it work
I'm not that great of a poet, But I put my all in to it, every time I create a verse
Inspired by Tupac, Eminem, and Nas, So I have the mind of a legend
Been dragged through hell, and you still can't find me in heaven
I'm searching for better days
trying to come up with things they never say
I wish god would let me go blind for a second
So it would be my heart and not eyes deciding if I want this girl in my life
I'd at least know my feelings are serious, and I don't just want her for one night 
Maybe I'm not ready to settle down with that mind set
I try to correct my wrongs, I just hope I have enough time left
Some people are dying at this very second, and I'm complaining about the pain in my life now
They had plans for tonight, so I should go out and do something right now
I've got a chance to turn my life around
Caught between I should fight for her and text her
Show her I want to make a wife of her, or forget her
We're not speaking right now
I've got old wounds that are still bleeding right now
I want to go out, but anxiety is preventing me from leaving right now
Was I born like this?, or did my parents neglecting me and putting me in care give me the dark side
I either care too much, or don't care at all, I don't know where my heart lies
27 foster families from age 7-11, wondering why my dad didn't want to play football with me
The blame they put it all on me
I believed it, even though I didn't force the alcohol down their throat
But a child will believe what they're told, especially when they're broke
Depression causes me so many ups and downs, but I'll never admit I'm struggling tonight
Parents never gave me a hug, yet girls don't seem to understand why I'm not the cuddling type
I'm the type to burn a bridge then try to put the fire out myself
I'm my biggest fan yet I still doubt myself
I act reckless, I don't know how to act normally
My all wasn't enough, so I gave you even more of me

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