More of Me

My all wasn't enough, So I gave you even more of me But now i'm doing what's right for myself, I'm ready to face whatever life has in store for me People tried to break me down, yet I still tried to find a way to make it work I'm not that great of a poet, But I put my all in to it, every time I create a verse Inspired by Tupac, Eminem, and Nas, So I have the mind of a legend Been dragged through hell, and you still can't find me in heaven I'm searching for better days trying to come up with things they never say I wish god would let me go blind for a second So it would be my heart and not eyes deciding if I want this girl in my life I'd at least know my feelings are serious, and I don't just want her for one night Maybe I'm not ready to settle down with that mind set I try to correct my wrongs, I just hope I have enough time left Some people are dying at this very second, and I'm complaining about the pain in my life now They had plans for tonight, so I should go out and do something right now I've got a chance to turn my life around Caught between I should fight for her and text her Show her I want to make a wife of her, or forget her We're not speaking right now I've got old wounds that are still bleeding right now I want to go out, but anxiety is preventing me from leaving right now Was I born like this?, or did my parents neglecting me and putting me in care give me the dark side I either care too much, or don't care at all, I don't know where my heart lies 27 foster families from age 7-11, wondering why my dad didn't want to play football with me The blame they put it all on me I believed it, even though I didn't force the alcohol down their throat But a child will believe what they're told, especially when they're broke Depression causes me so many ups and downs, but I'll never admit I'm struggling tonight Parents never gave me a hug, yet girls don't seem to understand why I'm not the cuddling type I'm the type to burn a bridge then try to put the fire out myself I'm my biggest fan yet I still doubt myself I act reckless, I don't know how to act normally My all wasn't enough, so I gave you even more of me