Monsters In My Head

I wish I had somebody to help me combat these monsters in my head As a kid we were scared of the monsters that may be underneath our beds Look at how many scars I've gained and how many tears I've shed I let all of my skeletons out of the closet just so they can become friends with the monsters in my head I'm tired of waking up daily to the same things a heart full of pain and my brain stings Trying to numb my thoughts but I can't go a second without thinking Surrounded by empty brandy bottles because I can't go a day without drinking I'm expected to conquer this depression monster So many words, but how much can I express in one verse? I've been battling for so long I thought I'd be used to the abuse and the torture We live in a world where more people make fun of Mike Tyson's lisp than they show compassion for when he lost his daughter Tired of this world that lacks compassion but I still try to be strong and kind I've got so much pain that I keep inside because I feel like it doesn't belong in rhymes Things I wanted to share, but I kept to myself I've faced nightmares, but I guess my Wishes got left in the well My mind replays a lot of memories I don't wish to see Do you understand why staying broken seems like the perfect fix for me? Because everytime I fought back against depression it was still me who bled Maybe one day I'll be without the company of these monsters in my head