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Monsters In My Head

I wish I had somebody to help me combat these monsters in my head
As a kid we were scared of the monsters that may be underneath our beds
Look at how many scars I've gained and how many tears I've shed
I let all of my skeletons out of the closet just so they can become friends with the monsters in my head

I'm tired of waking up daily to the same things
a heart full of pain and my brain stings
Trying to numb my thoughts but I can't go a second without thinking
Surrounded by empty brandy bottles because I can't go a day without drinking

I'm expected to conquer this depression monster 
So many words, but how much can I express in one verse? 
I've been battling for so long I thought I'd be used to the abuse and the torture 
We live in a world where more people make fun of Mike Tyson's lisp than they show compassion for when he lost his daughter

Tired of this world that lacks compassion but I still try to be strong and kind
I've got so much pain that I keep inside because I feel like it doesn't belong in rhymes 
Things I wanted to share, but I kept to myself 
I've faced nightmares, but I guess my Wishes got left in the well 

My mind replays a lot of memories I don't wish to see
Do you understand why staying broken seems like the perfect fix for me? 
Because everytime I fought back against depression it was still me who bled 
Maybe one day I'll be without the company of these monsters in my head
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Pigeon Tart Avatar
April 27, 2020 at 8:22 AM
Hi Alex. I have a lump in my throat, and I have no words. But my eyes hear you, and my heart feels you. I see your strength, greater than anything else. I know first hand, the damage monsters in one's head can do. I wish you ease of being dear poet. xomo
Duffy Avatar
May 7, 2020 at 3:09 AM
Thank you so much, your comment has made me feel better, I appreciate it. Writing about it definitely helps me a lot. Hope you have a great day :) xo
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