Monster Father

I wake from the monster 
coming home from his usual 
rage
Looks like he is drunk again, 
like an animal escaping from 
his cage
The pian in his eyes shows as 
he lines up his poison
He puts his nose on the 
forsaken table and sniffs in
With no regret he grabs the 
arm band and ties it around his 
bicep
So he can make his reminiscing 
mind forget
Forget about the past as he 
injects more poison in his veins
But little does he know, that I 
can never make this memory 
go away
But what happened next scars 
me to this day
With his drunken high haze
He calls me over from the 
shadows like a slave
He looks at me like an enemy 
on a battlefiled
I had fear in my eyes and 
thought i'd be killed
He states that i've ruined his 
life
And he calls me a mistake and 
to get out of his sight
I was 7 years old and couldn't 
move
Was frozen as he grabbed my 
hand and put it on the stove
He turns the heat on low like it 
was a game
Hovering my hand over the 
flame
Did this give him pleasure and 
satisfaction?
In the morning he won't 
remember a single action
As my hand feels the heat rise
He pulls from his grip because 
his high has died
So I run back into my room as 
he reloads
He grabs the glass container 
and lines up another line before 
he goes
Does my father realize the pain 
he brings
The screams my pain sings?
No of course not, all he cares 
about is his poison and brew
He used to be a hero in my 
eyes, but now he is just a fool
To this day I remember these 
memories in my nightmares
But like I said he doesn't care
In his eyes I a a mistake, all he 
cares about is his next fix
He is a monster, my father, an 
addict
Copyright © | Year Posted 2011

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