Mommy Dearest

as i look into your eyes i see what i become a mirror image of you,i learned how to survive from seeing you hustling and bustling on the grind.my mentality is the same as yours was my motives were worse.i sat doing timein federal prison while you layed in a hurse. the streets were my home because no home existed they welcomed me with open arms so i enlisted.my pain came in time through rapes and beatings greetings from the devil in our daily meetings. i missed you when you were gone and hated you when you came around but deep in my heart i never stopped loving you.i am your prodigy your seed your everything in between. all i wanted was to be like you.now look at me from another view.im not you! i went from a child at 13 to a woman overnight having to know wrong from right.in the daylight i romed the streets alone wishing you'd come find me.i stole to eat and put shoes on my feet struggled to hide and stay warm.i slept on a strangers porch and covered up with a tarp washed in the gas station bathroom.eating scraps out the garbage taking clothes from the clothes line the world was mine because you left me! everything i did i did alone only wanting someplace to call home.hooked up with bad people just to be loved sacrifycing myself for a dollar.the price i paid throughout the years landed me in prison facing 5 years.no way out was my fear didnt wanna die in there so i let myself go and let God take over.i promised id do better and change my life though i knew adversaties were inevitable. today im here and you are gone but you never leave my mind.we amy of been alike but im me and you are you and thats why ill always love you!