Moments Like These

It's moments like these when I wish being in hospital Was captivating, sweet and optional. Those sweet torments when I lost my mobility I've fell in love with people who only wanted to create my downfall, Faked smiles, and deceiving words while they shut ears from my call. An idiot I am, why do I let them hurt me? Why do I keep trusting? Why can't let them be? Oh how heartless you're Love! For you pump not the blood but pain, I'm not hopeless, I just chose to hope for less I'm starting to believe that's all I'm worth Just an optional girl toy in the hails of the earth. Even the youngest found my weakness Hid in charming words yet she was wicked, I feel this revolt filling my once soft and loving heart The one that I had from the start. I shall move on, not to forget the tears that made my pillows damp, And try to climb my next step The only love I.ve ever known was the nurses and doctor's love, Only because they got paid! I'm not giving up on love for there's only one love, Where you take PRAISES up and The GLORY comes down. I need strength! I need strength! For i am a nobody trying to use my talent to be somebody. Success emerge with no one to share with My list of problems is longer than this poem, It's moments like these when I wish being in hospital was optional.