Mom, did you cry on your wedding night?

Althroughout childhood, you would talk about your love story how when you’re older “you just know! you just know!” but when I told you I was engaged, the story changed it wasn’t love but pregnancy that brought the two of you together. What about this WONDEROUS love that brought the both of you together? But instead, it was a child conceived out of wedlock whispers of love and promises, only said in tangled up sheets but, when it’s all said and done, they fade away. I wonder is there ANY resentment from HAVING to get married? Did you cry when the child was dying And “have to” marry this man was leaving your body? Why did you go through with it? Of course, you gasped and couldn’t understand why, his and my love because sadly, you’re never felt it. Those tear stained faced nights And fleeing for safety Our close knitted bond and waking up to screaming your entire life thrown out ALL for a lie for a baby that didn’t even survive. Mom, did you cry? Did you cry? Did you cry? Mom, did you cry on your wedding night? And why did you follow through with the lie? Why didn’t you pick up and leave once the child died? run run run run away from the fear and hollowed pain run from the sex that was considered to be ”love” which is far from the same no wonder you fear that your daughter is doing the same You tell her she can leave she doesn’t have to stay would you tell yourself that on your wedding day? you tell me that we can stay engaged for as long as we need no rush you plea do you wish you did the same? Panic clenches and grips your vocal cords. Mom, did you cry on your wedding night?